poetry

road of emotions

i started writing poetry when i was 13 but didn't get serious or passionate about it until i was 19 i called this page road of emotions because i feel i have been down a long path to get to where i am, and indeed who i am today,

these are my poems i have wrote they go from new to older ones hope you enjoy them :@)

i write this poem the flame because i believe love is like a flame sometimes it burns real bright,other times it fades and then sometimes it just burns out,

the flame 10th oct 04

I'm sitting here trying to find some inspiration,

with every stroke of the pen there's hesitation,

then finally in my desperation,

i slowly begin my declaration,

my soul's sitting it's put on show,

the whole world see's the flames all aglow

they watch it burn as it grows,

but the hurt inside nobody knows,

you're still my motivation,

there's no way out of this situation,

we've lost all communication,

if we were water they would see evaporation,

the whole world watchers in amazement as still the candle burns bright,

from me they see this glowing light,

from you they can see nothing at all,

and all i can see is a dividing wall,

I've been burnt,I've been hurt,i wear the scars inside me,

there the things that the people cant see,

but what they see clearly is even though things are rough,

your still the one that i love.

this poem was written after i lost someone very special to me he was a great friend to my family although we always thought of him as if he was part of our's

death's taken him & now what? july04

my head's in a mess since he was taken away from this world,

I'm looking for the answers,it's left me so cold,

i cant get my head around it,

it's breaking me bit by bit,

i haven't been myself,

kept on blaming someone else,

i kept it all inside,

i should of just cried,

i cant forget that day

when he was taken away ,

so full of life and then he died

so many feelings i did hide,

I'm so scared now i cant even cry,

it's made me think what if i die?

so much i Want to do before i face my death,

i Want to have life with my true love before my final breathe,

it's hurts so badly i cannot lie,

that i never got to say goodbye.

this is to remind my love that i never forget about our first meeting and to make him realise what he means to me,

i remember aug04

i remember the first time we met,

it's a time I'll never forget,

and oh! how about our first kiss,

a taste of heaven oh! what bliss,

how happy we were,so full of life,

i remember the day u asked will i be your wife,

you can make me feel good about me,

a side no other tried to make me see,

never before have i been so sure,

of what i want forever more,

you by my side,

I'll be your faithful bride,

your the one the right one for me,

when I'm with you i feel so free,

here's hoping u feel the same way too,

because i only Want to be with u.

my dad is like my hero he is such a good man,i wrote this to tell everyone what he did

my dad sept04

i look up to my dad,

after all he did for us all,

he was a rock for me,

when i was small,

it was hard growing up,

without a women around,

i am grown up now,

my feel are on the ground,

to my dad i have always been special,

the youngest & the only girl in our family,

sometimes he is overprotective,

but never the less his always been there for me,

bringing up us four all on his own,

he don't judge us when in we confide,

i want to be like now i am grown,

being our mum,our dad,our nurse & our guide,

this is about how i feel about my self,a while back i thought that i was ugly and i couldn't even look into a mirror i am starting to see things differently now,

mirror image

look at her looking into that glass

what do u think she see's?

she still see's that girl who didn't fit in at class,

she wasn't the person they expected her to be,

now she don't like the way she look's

her face it was never right

she sits at home reading books

with perfect girls all in her sight,

she's thinking! what if i looked like them maybe i would fit in

she don't see that them girls mostly make up,

the company's pick girls who are perfect & slim,

with push ups to make them a bigger cup,

they are fake at least she's real

no cover up,just true beauty how she was made to be,

if only she could learn this she'd deal with her feelings of anxiety

then from them feelings she would be free!

what happened

what ever happened to the guy i used to know?

the one that would cheer me when i was feeling low,

the one who could turn to me and give me his all,

the one who would pick me up when i began to fall,

no I'm the only one who can emotionally express,

all these feelings i have of love & tenderness,

to my feelings I'm so emotionally connected

by your heart i do feel rejected,

what happened where did we go wrong?

we've both been different for far too long,

now all i see in my reflection is someone empty as can be,

someone i don't like or know staring back at me,

it's like i have travelled back in time,

pressing my life back no stop! just rewind,

i have been to this dark & empty place before,

still cant find my way out,so stuck here for evermore

our pain published

what should i do? questions running trough my mind.

because I'm so in love with him the answers are so hard to find!

my heart it ache's i feel I'm braking down,

emotions exploding in my sadness i start to drown.

his not here to hold my hand,or kiss me good night,

his not here to hold me when i cry & say everything will be Al right,

his four hundred miles from me,

so were in pain and going in sain,tears wont let us free,

i feel like sadness has overtaken my life,

cutting me up and wounding me like a knife

addicted

your eyes are like whirlpools of love,

i feel like I'm drowning each time i look at you,

i wish you could see how beautiful you are to me

then someday think that your beautiful too.

your voice makes me tremble from head to toe,

each time that you smile your checks are all aglow

your accent & deepness of your voice astounds me still,

I'm totally addicted and you are my pill,

i take a hit then come crawling back for more,

your lips so sweet & soft with gentle kisses that i adore,

your laughter brightens the darkest day,

I'm craving again and must find a way

to get you close and breathe you in,

to hold you close,feel the warmth of your skin,

to have you here through all types of weather,

so your here when i need you & that means forever,

simple things

simple things mean so much more,

feelings like you have never felt before,

losing words or like losing breath,

heart and pulse vibrating then it takes a rest,

like the way he reads emotional poetry to me,

is deeper than the mid most sea,

stronger than the widest flood,

more of this is more than enough,

the look in his eyes says it all,

the sound of his voice each time that i call,

its just the simple things,

that truly tell me that his heart sings,

many ways can say just how you feel,

that first kiss that lovers lips seal,

eyes twinkling like stars up above,

tells me how much he is in love.

this poem is a true story of how i found out that i had another brother and a sister that i have always wanted published

imagine

imagine being told something that could turn your life around,

then trying to speak but you couldn't make a single sound,

imagine your widest dreams coming true,

you couldn't imagine unless its happened to you.

I've wanted this since childhood,

but back then i didn't know,

that it could be this could,

this hidden secret as i grow.

i had a phone call to change my days,

to shock me and to amaze,

you have a brother & a sister i was told,

there now 14 & 15 years old,

a few weeks later we arranged to meet,

we now her face,the time & the street,

as days went past my nerves just grew,

it was like meeting a stranger or someone new.

there we were standing side by side,

with our loving arms all open wide,

a picture was taken to remember all this,

all this together fulfilled my only wish.

friendship

friendship is a precious gift,

that you have given to me,

by writing me an email/letter,

you have made me see,

that weather you friend is near or far,

you should try & keep in touch,

because you'll always need them,

sometimes people don't realise how much,

cause a friend is someone to rely on,

and tell your problems too,

they will listen carefully,

and advice you on what to do,

friends mean a lot to me,

so I'm holding on to mine,

if your a friend lets hope we stay that way,

until the end of time.

as long as

i used to dream what it would be like to fall in love,

my reality of the here and now is much better than the dream could ever be,

the dream itself was never enough,

I've felt loves hand ,loves passions flame burn inside of me,

there's no right way to feel love,everyone feels it different to the next,

some think they feel love but its but its lust that keeps them having fun,

some feel like their floating on air,on walking on cloud nine,

i think true love can outstand them all,even the quick,cruel fate of time,

that is why as long as i have love in my heart,

i feel i can achieve anything at all,

i feel i can break up the barriers that lead to you,

i can try to help,heal & love like no other through & through,

this i had promised you,from the day I'd began to fall,

as long as i can breathe or can say your name,

as long as i have a mind & a soul,

as long as i still feel loves great flame,

as long as my heart still feels whole,

as long as we have each other we can get through anything together,

as long as we have hope in our heart,

with our determination our loves bound to last forever,

i know we wont be forever apart,

i would do anything for you,reach up and catch a star i would,

i would try the impossible if you asked me too,id see if i could,

i would walk, even crawl as many miles as it took to get to you,

and darling i know you would do the same too.

why oh why ?

i sit & wonder why we was put upon this earth,

i wonder why we was given this miracle of birth,

oh why was we treated so badly before,

but yet it makes us appreciate each other that bit more,

why are you so perfect for me but it took so long for our paths to bind,

why some guys can be such jerks and yet sometimes your too kind,

why can you look deeper than they could do?

and when's there's something on our minds instead of arguing we simply talk it through,

why did they put me down? and make me feel sad?

yet you've placed me on a pedestal and make me feel real glad,

why to me you are my king? and I'm queen up on high,

yet some people cheat and then they lie,

why do some people take their loved ones for granted? just because they want it all

i wish i could say to them to be thankful because after all,

i only see my loved one every few when he can come & visit then he goes back away,

i wish i could tell them if they carry on then their lovers will not stay,

why then they might realise that when there in lovers embrace they are blessed as can be,

because ill be missing you and you'll be missing me,

i would say that some days it is easy whilst some are hard to bare,

as memories of you and me are absolutely everywhere.

then some people might ask why I'm with you, and your still with me,

i would say simply because we are in love with each other & someday together we will also be

my love,my life,you are my whole world,

you are my rock,my sun when it's cold,

your my stars in the sky,my story that I've told,

you are my smile,my laughter and my light,

my strength,my weakness too,which just seams so right,

its kind of funny when,i know what your going to say,

my heart knows not distance & misses you when your away,

you gave me back my smile which was once taken from me,

i revealed myself to you showed you all that i can be,

your everything around me,your all i have & hold,

your my joy,my thoughts,my love,my life,you are my whole world.

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