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[CF, after a
long pause] - Uhm, I'm gonna have to say person, this person
that's trying to connect to me is giving me this feeling of terrible,
terrible fear of water, right at the, right at the end of their life.
Absolute sense of panic. I cannot help but feel that this person drowned.
Drowned, yes. (Pause) Eh, would you be able to understand that the body
was never recovered or it took a long time to find the body? Can you
understand this?
(Addressing a
man that raised a hand)
[Man] - Yeah, I can understand it...
CF: - You understand this?
[Man] - Yeah...
CF: - Uhm, and I'm sorry I've got to say person, because at
the moment they're not identifiable as such by gender. It's a complex
feeling that they're giving me, I feel male orientation but if it's male
it also feel very child-like or young. Do you understand this?
[Man] - Yes
CF: - So, uhm, because of the feeling that it's giving me,
I've got to say lad. (Pause) There's almost like a, uhm, I mean, said to,
I mean, an embarrassment or shame feel in the fact that he shouldn't have
been where he was at the time that this happened. He was actually told not
to go there.
[Man] - Yeah, yeah...
CF: - It's quite a difficult thing that he's given me,
because it's not... He wants it to be known that he wants to apologize,
not for dying, 'cause he wants to apologize for the fact that he's left
three, he left three people feeling guilty that they should have made sure
that he wasn't actually where he was on the day that he drowned. Would you
please understand why he has this memory of someone who could impersonate
Donald Duck?
[Man] - Yes, yes
CF: - Who... Would you please also be, understand-stand
why... Lot of little memories today... Two boys that used to hang upside
down by their legs?
[Man] - I don't recognize that...
CF: - He's giving me this memory here, and, and... About
hanging up... I might be getting this wrong... But about hanging upside
down or standing upside down until the blood rushed to the head and they
got dizzy.
[Man] - No, I don't recognize that...
CF: - Why is 1979 important? He's just put up 1979 in front
of me. [Pause] He's certainly giving me the feeling that it's something
that's important, I... Can I ask you please, was he still at this side of
life then?
[Man] - Yes he was, yes he was...
CF: - There seems to be something about 1979, wanting to
connect it to you and then talking about two... This probably strikes you
as peculiar. Two boys are either upside down or they're doing something
where they were upside down and... Got it... I'm sorry, got it! (CF is
looking up, addressing the spirit.) 1979, and you, do you know about
roller-coaster rides?
[Man] - Yes
CF: - About being upside down...
[Man] - Mm..
CF: - And it's supposed to be about something that he hopes that you
remember about 1979, about being in a place where you were upside down.
[No response from the man]
CF: - Now, uhm, two... Would you understand, were you one of
the people that tried to remind him or stop him from going to where he
went when he drowned?
[Man] - Yes, yes...
CF: - So you're one of the three people that he wants to
apologize to for making you feel so guilty for not having stopped him.
[Man] - Yes, I was, yes...
CF: - There also seems to be quite a strong memory here of
someone that, who he remembers quite well, called Peter.
[No response from the man]
CF: - I think he would have been a peer, someone who is his
age group at the time...
[Man] - I don't know...
CF: - OK, I, I, I thought I was gonna give a message through
to this gentleman but it's not... It's just what... He wants it to be
known that this, this lad Peter, who was a friend of his time, is now also
spirit side of life.
[Man] - OK
CF: - He's one of four, OK I was... He was one of four people
that was involved in a car accident where the car actually caught a life.
As much as this, this man now but boy when he passed over wants to convey
to you, you know, his love and his best wishes to you, this is one of
these messages where I feel there is no, it's , the message is for his
benefit, it's for him to be able to say "I'm sorry that I left three
people behind who I made, for so long, feel so bad for not stopping me".
He seems to be ware that either the first three days or the first three
weeks after he died, was killed, were the worst. So either... He was
either trying to indicate there were either three days of not knowing or
three weeks of not knowing.
[Man] - Yes...
CF: - You can, you can understand that?
[Man] - I can understand that...
[CF, after a pause] - Do you have any interest in
snowboarding?
[Man] - No, no...
CF: - No, it's not... Tell me please, would you be able to
understand about someone who decided to go down a slope of snow on like a
big (non-audible) but couldn't stop?
[Man] - No, not really, no...
CF: - I't could indicate that it's another memory he has...
About, uhm, quite some time ago...
[Man] - OK
CF: - Think about if you can remember, uhm, what it is... As
he (non-audible), I just get this feeling that he's hoping that after
having said this queue that, that, at least the three of you now will
accept that he is taking responsibility, that it was his fault that he
died and he, he, he's very sorry having left three people (non-audible) so
much, (non-audible) for not doing what he was told. And he leaves his love
with you. (Pause) I'm gonna try... (non-audible -- CF is again addressing
the purple scarf woman) This gentleman who is trying to connect to you who
is in spirit (non-audible), I feel love for you but I feel that it's like
he was quite cold, he didn't display his emotions or his affection very
easily. I'm just gonna have to go with the feeling that I've got... Tell
me, would you understand why he's asking me to talk to you about the fact
that he know... Did someone ask you to invest money?
[Purple scarf woman] - Now, no...
CF: - Or business plan...
[Purple scarf woman] - Not that I can remember...
CF: - No, no, this is gotta be something current, now...
[Purple scarf woman] - No, no...
CF: - Can't (non-audible), can't change it 'cause this
feeling is too... The only (non-audible) that I can understand is have you
agreed to lend somebody money over three or four payments?
[Purple scarf woman] - I don't think I understand...
[Interpreter now asks purple scarf woman if she has lent somebody
money]
[Purple scarf woman] - Yes, yes
[Interpreter now fills in that it's supposed to be over three or four
payments]
[Purple scarf woman] - It's the bank or... Is it the bank or
a person or which? Can it be a bank...
[Interpreter cuts it short and again asks the woman if she has lent
somebody some money]
[Purple scarf woman] - Yes, you can say that...
CF: - I, I, I keep asking this man to identify himself, to
give me a name or how he connects to you but he doesn't respond. He's,
he's asked me to... He says she's... It's not that he feels that you
shouldn't do this, but he'd like you to think about making it not quite so
much. Do it, but not as much. You can understand now?
[Purple scarf woman nods]
CF:
- I wish I could get more from him but this seems to be what he wanted to
say to you.
[Purple carf woman] - Can I ask something?
CF: - Yes, go on
[Purple scarf woman] - Is he from the family side or
(non-audible)?
CF: - Yes, yes, and I, I'm ... because I'm being drawn to the
right on this I gotta say it's father's side of the family. (Pause) That
seems to be all he wants to say to you. I wish there was more, but that's
all I can ask... (Pause) This is going to be a tough one... All right...
[Audience laughs]
CF: - I don't... I have a gentleman... Well, I think he's a
gentleman... I have a gentleman trying to connect to me and I don't know
whether he's showing me something about his lifestyle or whether he's
showing something that is a joke that someone is able to understand. I
have this gentleman trying to connect to me showing himself dressed in
women's clothes.
[Audience laughs]
CF: - Look, do we have someone here that was once friends
with someone who was a drag artist? Or a female impersonator? (No answer)
This is, this guy seems quite young and I don't feel that this person has
been passed over very long. I don't feel he has been passed over more
than, than probably four or five years. I'm beginning to feel quite sorry
for this guy because I really feel as though he was really, really
misunderstood in life. I'm somewhere over on this side
(CF walks across
the stage, addressing the right side of the audience.)
Somewhere on
this side... Yes miss?
[Woman] - Uhm, I had a late friend that used to buy women
clothing, he was wear..., tried to wear it, but not especially, he wasn't
dressed like a woman, he wasn't wear..., he liked wearing pink.
CF: - I can't help but feel, my love, that, that the feeling
that he was giving me was that, this is not a joke, there's nothing
humorous about it, but someone would understand about him wearing woman's
clothes.
[Woman] - (non-audible) He wasn't actually wearing
(non-audible)...
CF: - There's something in-(non-audible) very sad about him.
Or the end of his life was very sad. I, I, I can't help but feel, my love,
that there was only about five people at the end of his life that
understood the agony that he was going through.
[Woman] - Well I don't think it's him then...
CF: - Well, would you please be able to understand that very
few people went to his funeral?
[Woman] - Yes, I wasn't there...
[Audience laughs]
CF: - No but, you understand that very few people went?
[Woman] - Yes
CF: - Uhm... Would you be able to understand that about a
year before he passed away, he was involved in some (non-audible) where
there was an act of violence?
[Woman] - Nothing I know of but it could have happened...
CF: - Right. (Pause) Would you, can you please understand why
he's asking me to say he wants to thank you for listening shortly before
he passed away when he was telling you about how frightened he had become?
[Woman] - (non-audible) I am puzzled...
CF: - You were puzzled?
[Woman] - Yes
CF: - Would you understand that he seemed to be very nervous?
[Woman] - Uhm, he was always kind of nervous...
CF: - Would you please understand that you still have contact
with two other of his friends?
[Woman] - Uhm, not often but...
CF: - But you know two other particular people that he was
friends with?
[Woman] - More know of...
CF: - Right.
[Woman] - Not friends...
CF: - No, friends of his...
[Woman] - Yes
CF: - OK. I'm just... He's asked me to just convey to you
that the, as much as he'd like to send his best wishes to you, if you get
the opportunity, can you let them both know that he is saying hello as
well?
[Woman] - Yes, I can...
CF: - Are you the one that's very good at arranging flowers?
[Woman] - Uhm... (non-audible)
CF: - No, no, no, but are you, are you... Do you like... You
are quite good at arranging flowers?
[Woman] - I like to, but... (non-audible)
CF: - Right, is this something that you have have been doing
quite recently?
[Woman] - Not that I know of... No, nothing (non-audible)
CF: - Well, the only thing I can say to you is that he just
wants..., if I'm getting it wrong about arranging flowers, he wants to let
you know that he's been with you or close to, or drawn close to you, just
recently when you were doing something, when you were doing something with
flowers or floral effects.
[Woman, laughing] - I went to a funeral... And I had, you
know...
CF: - So you did something with a floral effect for a
funeral?
[Woman] - Uhm, I was... No...
[The interpreter now tries to patch it all together by saying that she
was at a funeral and there were flower arrangements there]
[Woman] - Well, yeah...
CF: - He just wants to tell you that he was with you on that
day. That's his message to you. He just wants to come and say hello to
you. (Pause) I've got a lady trying to connect through to me, and as she's
trying to connect through to me, uhm... She's showing me that she passed
from this side of life, uhm, she's quite elderly, after contracting
pneumonia. I've got a feeling I've gotta be talking about someone's
mother. Yes, you understand? Your mother passed this life after
contracting pneumonia? Uhm... (Long pause) Come on, my love... (CF is
addressing the spirit) (Pause) Tell me, would you please understand... Uhm,
wha... Were you the one that was very concerned about her being cold?
[Elderly woman nods]
CF:
- Yes? Like, like in the end... Like when she became ill, there was this
thing about taking extra measures to make sure that she wasn't cold.
[Elderly woman] - Mmmm...
CF: - She's trying to put in my mind, uhm, I can't see if
she's trying, it's either 87 or 89 she's trying to put in, in, into my
mind.
[Elderly woman] - 89
CF: - OK. It's a frequent problem identifying when there's
either a 7 or a 9, it's either 87 or 89. I get a feeling that you would
understand why she wants to say to you, and she said, before she become
ill, "I think I lived long enough".
[Elderly woman] - Yes, that is correct, yes.
CF: - I'm not gonna to say that she was tired of life but she
felt that she had lived long enough and she told you this shortly before
she became ill.
[Elderly woman] - Yes
CF: - I know we're coming up with a Christmas spirit, it's
only logical, but she says, are you, are you going to be a party of six
over Christmas, or six adults?
[Elderly woman] - Maybe
CF: - Right. She's just asked me to actually say to you it's
a great pity then, that there are only five of the special glasses left.
Now, I feel that these glasses are either coloured in some way or they
have like a gold rim around the top.
[Elderly woman] - Yes
CF: - Right, OK. She says it's a great pity that there is
only five of those glasses left, when really you need six. Because they
were, they were originally a set of twelve that got divided by two people,
divided between two people.
[Elderly woman, trying to interpose] - No
[But CF goes on] - So one party had six, the other party had
six, you only have five of them left now because one of them got broken.
You understand this?
[Elderly woman] - I understand
[Interpreter] - So you have shared the set with someone else,
and one is broken...
[Elderly woman] - No
[Interpreter] - But one is missing...
[Elderly woman] - No
[Interpreter] - No?
[Elderly woman] - One is missing
[Interpreter] - Yes
[Elderly woman] - It started with my sister getting...
[CF interupts] - Can I just ask you... Would you
understand... Are you the one that's recently fallen very heavily on your
right hip?
[Elderly woman] - No
CF: - Right, then please can you identify or understand,
there is a lady this side of life that your mother would be concerned that
would've recently fallen heavily on the right hip?
[Elderly woman] - No... I'm sorry...
[CF, after a pause] - Tell me, do you still have an elderly
aunt still this side of life?
[Interpreter, in Swedish] - Do you still have an aunt, that
is a sister...
[Elderly woman's companion, to her, in Swedish] - Sister...
[Elderly woman] - Yes, yes...
CF: - Have you spoken to her recently?
[Elderly woman] - Yes
CF: - But you've not seen her, you've only spoken to her?
[Elderly woman] - Yes
CF: - Can I just actually tell you please, I don't know if
your mother is asking me to say to you will you phone her and ask her why
she did not tell you about falling...
[Elderly woman] - I shall do it...
CF: - You know that, that aunt also, that aunt also has got,
has a daughter this side of life, yes?
[Interpreter, in Swedish] - This, uhm, this aunt, or, uhm...
This woman also has a daughter on this side?
[Elderly woman] - Yes
CF: - Mmm, I think you also should ask, (non-audible), your
mother says you should also ask your aunt why her daughter has upset her,
because she didn't tell you about that either. Your mother and I... It's
always very difficult because, you know, because they always want, try not
to say bad things about family. Your mother has just asked me to mention
to you that you know of this aunt that her nearest family, her direct part
of the family, aren't always as good to her as they should be. (No answer
from the elderly woman.) Speak to your aunt.
[Elderly woman] - Yes
CF: - Speak to her and just say "look", you know... "What are
these things that you are not telling me, why didn't you tell me about
falling over and what has your daughter done that has upset you?" (Pause)
What... Do you know please, why your mother is asking me just to indicate
the 14th of March?
[Elderly woman] - 14th of March? No, the 18th... No... The
18th of March.
CF: - No, I'm getting the 14th. But... OK, not that it
(non-audible), I think she's asking me to mention this as to remind you
that you must put in the diary on the 14th of March next year, otherwise
you will forget.
[Elderly woman] - OK
[CF, after a pause] - Did your mother like Charlie Chaplin?
[Audience laughs]
[Elderly woman] - Yes, she did...
CF: - She, she just like showed me this, this image of
Charlie Chaplin and she said that before she goes she asked me to mention
about the fact, to remind you that she still liked Charlie Chaplin, and
the fact that she, she would often say that the old style movies were
always better than, you know, the modern movies with sound. But I think
that, you know, that she particularly liked Charlie Chaplin. You
understand that?
[Elderly woman] - Aha, aha...
CF: - And she just likes to say that, one thing that is, that
even though it was quite hard for her to tell you at the end of her life,
she was very, very grateful to you for trying to make sure that she was
kept warm, that she wasn't cold.
[Elderly woman] - Mm...
CF: - But, as she had told you before, I did feel as though I
had lived long enough. I leave your mother's love with you. [Pause] Is
there somebody here today who is flying out to the Canary Islands just
after Christmas?
[Lonely man, same as before] - Yes
CF: - Your flying out to the Canary Islands? Just after
Christmas? Early January?
[Lonely man] - Yes
CF: - Have your tickets arrived yet?
[Lonely man] - Yes
CF: - Do you know where you've put them?
[Lonely man] - Yes
CF: - Are you absolutely sure about that?
[Audience laughs]
[Lonely man] - Yes
CF: - And do you know where your passport is?
[Lonely man] - Yes
CF: - I just feel as though your grandfather has stepped back in
again just before we're trying to close, but, to tell you to make
absolutely sure you know where your tickets and where your passport are.
Tell me please, do you have some old, do you have some old papers or
magazines that you have put aside to throw away?
[Lonely man] - Probably
CF: - I would go through them very, very carefully before you
throw them away.
[Audience laughs]
CF: - I can't help feeling that, as he sort of like move away
from us, that he wants you to make, check your tickets, check your
passport and make sure that there is nothing between these papers that, I
mean, you need, that is vital to this trip to... (Pause) That seems to be
all he wanted... Oh, and just, he takes it up again, says that he'll be
very disappointed with you if you don't read that passage in the bible
he's asked you to. I'll leave his best wishes with you. Thank you very
much!
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