Chapter Twenty-Four - Icarus
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The
whole church shone. Beams of light so brilliant it was like staring for
too long at the California sun: too bright to watch, too intense, too painful.
Spike’s
screams had become rasping snarls filled with agonies. A punk Icarus too close
to a vicious sun, the strange sunshine flooding in through the shattered windows
was too strong for him to bear. The light poured into the nave like a cleansing
tsunami heaven-sent to purify the malevolent night. It took back to the divine
what the profane had defiled with innocent blood and Buffy feared the thin
strips of weak shade underneath the pews were not nearly enough to protect his
undead flesh from its scouring. She stretched herself back over his chest in the
desperate hope she was doing enough to shield him from crumbling to dust in her
arms. Her small body was poor protection from the savage glare, but his skin had
already begun to sizzle with a sickening hiss and there was no other shelter she
could offer. Too
harsh to escape, the light washed away colours and drowned shadows as it
intensified, whitewashing the walls, arches and dark sacred hollows to a stark
monochrome. But she couldn’t afford to close her eyes, not yet, even though
they stung and had begun to pool with tears which softened the edges of her
vision and made the church look like a painting brushed in lipid watercolours.
Through this watery lens the arches rose above her like a series of tall
waterfalls, solemn cascades in a river of luminescence, the sagging wedding
blooms hung from them brought back to life as bubbling spray crashing upon the
rocky pews at the feet of the columns. Beyond them, the altar seemed vague, a
boxy island in the torrent, but the vivid spring emerald of the altar cloth had
become sallow and liquid, the intricate patterns embroidered onto the fabric and
the gruesome trail of dry anaemic blood that stained the thin thread lost as the
colours ran and bled into each other. Even the shimmering gold cross had faded
into a formless, unrecognisable blob, bleached and pallid against the now drab
cloth. With
no darkness left to sustain their tainted counterfeit of life, the revenant dead
shrank away; crawling back into the silent refuge of their dark holes or, like
the wraiths, curling away into charcoal smoke as they let cry one last shriek of
hideous complaint. As the last of them fell mute, the banging on the church door
ceased; the high tide of the risen ebbing as they returned to their desecrated
graves. Their
racket was replaced by a sudden and reverent silence, the world falling still
for a long moment out of time. As life and death reorganised themselves back
into their proper order, Buffy felt something shift inside her, an odd movement
of her being; as if the universe was clicking her soul back into
position. The unbearable pressure of the wraith’s calls lifted from her like a
heavy, suffocating veil to reveal how false their entreaties had been. A while
ago she might have given anything to join them, to regain a longed for peace
that had been ripped away, but that was then and for all the upheaval her life
had seen since she didn’t seek death just yet. Finally,
with a new lightness inside, she let her eyes fall shut. The
weird sunlight didn’t last. After a few minutes it slowly relented. Like a
flare giving up all hope of rescue, it dropped in intensity, fading from
dazzling to daylight to a brief, deepening dusk. As the church settled back into
tranquil, moonlit shadows again, full dark returned and Buffy opened her eyes to
a black world, deep and impenetrable. She
wiped a hand across her face, sweeping away the tears and trying to blink away
the fuzzy constellation of polka dot stars burnt into her retinas. “The
hell…?“ Spike
didn’t reply. Instead he released a heavy, relieved sigh and let his head
slump to the floor. Gently,
she prised his tense fingers from her arms and rolled off his chest onto her
knees. She was worried about him, but he was solid and substantial and wasn’t
on fire, and so was unlikely to dust if she left him for a minute to check for
any more dangers. Even though her eyes were still adjusting to the dark, she
peered out over the back of the pew. The church seemed to be smothered in a
quiet calm. Nothing moved in the shadows or hollered a war cry from a undead
throat. They appeared to be alone. Relieved
– nothing to worry about except a whole undead army blocking their way home
– she sat back on her heels and looked down at Spike. “It’s okay,
they’ve gone.” He
nodded, slowly heaving himself up to sit beside her. “About time.” “What
was that?” she wondered aloud, not really
expecting him to have the answer. “Not
a buggering clue.” He hissed as he shrugged stiffly. “Ow. Bloody hurt
though.” “Are
you okay?” she asked, not seeing anything wrong. He was nothing but a black
shape tipped with silver where his hair caught the moonlight, but she couldn’t
forget the terrible sounds he’d been making. She reached out to help him
somehow, soothe him maybe, but as she touched his hand he snatched it away. “Bit
sore, pet,” he croaked apologetically, lifting his head out of the shadows.
His exposed skin looked angry and red, just like he was a real boy who’d
fallen asleep on a beach in the mid-day sun. In some places it was already
beginning to blister and peel. “Nothing to worry about.” She
had her doubts; he looked so raw, but her concern could wait until they had
figured out the cause of the mysterious light. If it happened again they needed
to be ready for it. The sunlight – if that was what it really was – hadn’t
felt evil though, like something The First would conjure, and it had
driven the dead back to their rest, but she already knew that it wasn’t divine
in any way – slayers didn’t get that kind of intervention. Instead it had
felt more like being caught in a nuclear blast or standing too close to a star.
Spike, pinned under her body where they’d fallen, had been protected from its
full strength, but he was lucky not to have crumbled to powder a second time. If
she hadn’t fallen across him… She
didn’t think anymore, suppressing the cold fear scything through her, and just
kissed him. If
she’d thought it through rationally, she wouldn’t have expected him to
respond, maybe ducking out from under her searching lips as he tried to
re-establish the distance between them, but instead he grabbed her, wincing a
little with the pain, but kissing her back forcefully as if this was what he’d
wanted all along. A perfect moment became captured in one kiss. She shut her eyes, her hands gripping his arms, clenching the leather of his coat tighter and tighter after every second they were connected. She'd forgotten! Forgotten how great the soft swell of his lips felt against her mouth, how his touch made her feel so, so good. She never wanted to forget again, never, because this was what she had been missing all this time; that fission fusion, ying yang push-pull of their auras that drew them together, pitching light against dark in such wonderful ways; a struggle as old as the sun and the moon themselves. And
how different this was from the all the kisses they’d shared before, when
she’d been so wrapped up in her own misery that she hadn’t noticed his. In
her life she'd tasted young love, remorse, hopeless longing and, all too often,
despair on another’s lips, but this kiss was in another class. This was one of
those moments she’d tried to deny, when heat expanded like a supernova inside
them, the same intense passion there had always been causing her to tingle all
over with excited sparkles that exploded in her fingers and toes. A churning
whirlpool of lust spun in her stomach as the kiss lingered; past passion into
the barest of touches, a connection between them that neither wished to break. They
always came back to each other; to this now…
though what this was exactly she couldn’t put a name to. A tangled
knot of opposing feelings had warred within her. She knew they weren’t soul
mates or anything fanciful like that, most of the time she’d known him she’d
wished him a swift dusty death and meant it, but she had the fleeting thought
that maybe they had become tied together somehow, tangled up on a tether that
reached even through dimensions and death. How they’d got to this, she
couldn’t say; but she couldn’t help wondering if this thing between them
that kept drawing them to each other had all been part of some spell, perhaps
even a residue effect of mistaken magic that had bound them together in a
twisted arranged marriage. Maybe that spell of Willow’s had had much deeper
consequences than a whole lot of red-faced embarrassment. Whatever
it was, whatever they’d felt, at some point it had deepened; Buffy couldn't
quite pin down the exact instant when Spike had gone from murderous annoyance to
sex-on-a-stick, but she guessed it had been something to do with her death. His
weight, plummeting with guilt and grief, had somehow accentuated his best
features and suddenly, tall, looming hunks were as out as last season’s
hottest shoes and in came short, lean, muscular punks in mean leather and silver
jewellery. If she’d realised just how deep a punk-rock, beached blond, irritating
vampire could worm his way into her heart, she could have defended herself.
Without a soul he would always be Mr. So Very Very Wrong, but that was no longer
an issue. So here he was, Mr. Can't Live Without back from the dead again, cocky
and coarse and with a soul just for her. She would not squander her second
chance. When
they finally broke apart, his smile was warm, as happy as any she'd seen him
wear, but when she looked up at him, trying to decipher his deeper mysteries in
the soft moonlight, she saw a wariness there that lingered in his eyes as if he
still couldn't believe this to be true. But he held her gaze and she saw there
the same devotion she’d denied, buried under the doubt and the hope and the
fear and the elation. She wanted so much to reassure him that this time she
would get it right, but this wasn’t time for words. She said it all with
another kiss. When
that was over she reluctantly pulled away. She licked her lips absently. “We
had better go.” “Yeah,”
he replied, his rumbling voice scratchy and low, a promise for more to come. She
dropped her eyes and turned away, breaking the moment. She might even have
blushed. If she kept her eyes locked with his, they might never leave and she seriously
needed a shower. “Um. There’s—“ She
never finished her sentence. A
whiplash crack of thunder rent the air and the church door imploded inwards,
wrenched violently off its mangled hinges by the blast. The pew that had wedged
it shut was propelled backwards, smashing against carved stone, the old wood
pulverised into matchwood. As it fell to the floor, nothing more now than sharp,
toothpick splinters, a dark figure stepped into the doorway, terrible in
silhouette. “Willow!”
At the sight of the witch standing in the porch, hair bleached silver with raw
magic billowing around her head at the centre of its own cyclone, angry ivory
whips lashing at the air above her, Buffy brightened into a relieved grin. Following
Buffy’s voice, Hurricane Willow turned her head. For a second she still looked
inhuman as she scanned the church for her friend, something capricious and
elemental. Sparks still zipped and snapped from her fingers, her eyes fathoms
deep with magic, but the impression was gone the instant she saw Buffy. Her
power started to dissipate, colour flushing into her pupils and her hair
bleeding back to red as the magic drained away. A
normal girl again, she gave Buffy a goofy smile in return. Buffy
pulled away from Spike and jumped to her feet, rushing down the nave to throw
her arms around her friend. "Will! You're here! What happened? The First
was outside. It had an army.” “Yeah,
we saw it.” Willow smile upped in wattage to become a broad grin. “Most of
them are all dead or dusty now. The rest fled back into the woods.” Of
course, Buffy realised, a bright, uncanny light from out of nowhere – a spell.
“That light. That was you?” “Tara’s
little sunshine spell. I tweaked it a bit,” Willow nodded proudly. “Okay, a
lot.” “Careful
where you’re firing it next time, Red.” As
Spike spoke and emerged from the shadows, Willow’s sweet grin evaporated and
she darkened; hair turning to russet, auburn, black. The glittering softness in
her eyes hardened to flint. Her hand shot out and he froze mid-step, locked into
freeze frame. “Willow,
no!” Buffy pleaded, moving herself between Spike and the witch. “It’s just
Spike.” Before
Willow could answer, Giles appeared at her shoulder. He looked tired and worn,
worry carving deep lines into his forehead, but he still looked dangerous and
determined, a worthy adversary to anything evil foolish enough to cross his
path. “No,
Buffy, it’s The First.” he told her, not greeting Buffy with any
friendliness. There was work to be done and this wasn’t the time for happy
reunions. “Please stand aside.” “Giles!
No!” Buffy protested, worried that this stand off was going to end up like a
gunfight at the Not-Okay Corral. “Believe me, this is
Spike. I know it. The First is out there somewhere.” She waved her arm in the
vague direction of outside. Willow’s
glare seemed to waver. She gave Giles an anxious glance. He
stepped forward with an arm outstretched, trying to soothe and reassure her like
she was an uneasy thoroughbred. “Buffy. I know these past few months have been
difficult and you have lost a lot, including Spike. But this is not the Spike
you knew. Something happened in Los Angeles, Buffy. The First has changed…” “Giles,
I know,” Buffy couldn’t help rolling her eyes. “I’m not jumping
to conclusions because I want him back. The First is solid and it’s wearing
Spike’s face. I’ve seen them both. Tonight. Together. In the
both in the same place standing next to each other kind of together.” She
gestured to Spike beside her, as still as a statue sculpted in ebony and
alabaster. “And this one is Spike.” Giles
stopped and straightened. “Are you sure?” “A
million percent sure.” Buffy nodded. “I can tell the difference,
Giles.” “Hmmm.”
he pondered as he gave Spike a critical inspection. Buffy bit down on her anger
as she saw him weighing up the pros and cons of trusting her judgement. After
all that had happened he still couldn’t quite accept that she was an adult
capable of putting her feelings to one side. Eventually
he seemed to come to a conclusion and gestured for Willow to stand down. She
lowered her arm sheepishly and she lightened again. Spike,
staggering slightly as he was released from his temporal trap, snapped. “Watch
it, Red. This body’s brand new. Not likely to get another one!” Willow's
eyes grew huge as she realised he really was Spike. "Wow, then it's
true! You're back." Spike
shrugged, using nonchalance to cover the awkwardness. "Just took a bit of a
detour getting here." “Two of them!” Giles sighed, rubbing his face with a hand. “As if one wasn’t enough already.” Buffy chose to ignore that. “So how did you know we needed help? "Giles
got a call from Angel,” Willow said, picking her way through the debris
she’d made to join Giles in the nave. Her nose wrinkled as she caught the
stink of death that hung in the air. “He said you might need some Scooby
assistance." “Yes,”
Giles added. “I believe Wesley found out something about the First's plan.
Angel thought you should know. They're on their way." Buffy
’s stomach dropped like a runaway elevator, hitting the bottom with a smash.
"Angel's coming here?" Spike
snorted with disgust or contempt. Probably both. "Great, might have known
the old bugger couldn't leave it alone. Still can't trust me, can he?" "There’s
a lot of that going round,” Buffy said acidly, but she put her irritation with
Giles aside. “So how did you even get into the village?” she asked.
“There's a spell..." "Yeah,
it's a really strong one too. We had to punch our way through it,” Willow gave
the air a half-hearted right hook with her delicate fist. “Indeed,”
Giles agreed. “The village has been pulled into another reality…” Buffy
couldn’t resist. “Another dimension? Is there shrimp?” “Yes,
I believe so. Buffy. Please pay attention,” Unconsciously, Giles removed his
glasses and started to polish them. This discussion was getting all too
familiar; she might have been back at High School getting her daily
Giles-lecture. “As I was saying, this village has been pulled into another
reality, as it were, but we’re in nothing as complicated as a whole dimension.
We’re within a spell. A powerful one that is holding us out of phase with the
rest of the world, but the village remains real and physical. Unless they know
it is here, people will subconsciously avoid the area, but once they find a way
in they cannot escape. They get caught here.” Buffy
thought that over. Absently, she rubbed
her biceps. Spike had held them so tightly she would have a bloom of bruises by
morning. “A bit like a
magical spider’s web?” “That
would be an excellent analogy. Yes, indeed it is.” Spike
nodded in that way he did when he was mulling things over. “It’s a trap.
Lures you in, keeps you going round in circles til it drives you bonkers.” “It’s
like the whole village is contained in this big invisible bubble,” Willow
threw her arms out wide to demonstrate her point and Buffy didn’t miss they
way Spike dodged warily out of their range. “We had to ignore what our eyes
were telling us and drive straight into it." “We
break the spell then.” Spike said firmly. “Get the hell away from here.” Buffy
perked up at that. "Great, that means we can leave." "Not
really,” Giles just had to pour cold water on an awesome plan. “We could
break the spell, but for the moment I’m not sure that’s wise.” he
explained, “As it is, The First has contained its armies within the village
and the spell, but that only means they’re just as stuck as we are. They
cannot harm anyone outside the boundaries. We may find it prudent to keep them
here for as long as possible.” Buffy
slumped back down onto a vacant pew. “So what do we do?”
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