DESPAIR & TONIC
Lyrics: Copyright Nervous System



Above confusion
the silence calls to me
A perfect failure
is how it labels me
Thrown into a godless world
I live a life that wears me to the ground


My life a chapter
in a story rarely told
Unending illness
makes the world seem bitter cold
At a time I need assurance
I just drown in questions that I asked


Overwhelmed by a sadness I can't heal
Wounds that never seal
Feelings I can't feel
In a world I thought was real
No time left for me
to find a cure for my disease
It's a tonic I can't take
It's a journey I would never make


Painted starscape
Cardboard buildings
Plastic people
Paper aeroplanes
Fake emotions
Plastered smiles
They seek to drown me
But they won't drown me
It's not yet time to check out
But I know the time will soon be here


If only it was there
A tonic for despair
If only I was there
A life that I could bear
No time left to see
the place where I'm supposed to be
No matter where I'd be
There'll always be monotony


Tied up with emotions I can't stand
Anger binds my hands
A world I understand
A cityscape that looks so bland
No time left for me
To see the things that I was meant to see
With the tonic I can't take
I'll just pay for my mistakes